I haven’t really been in the mood to blog much lately. I’ve been feeling down in the dumps. I haven’t really had much content to blog and I haven’t really been taking many pictures. I think I usually whip out my camera when I get excited and happy about something…but lately I just haven’t been genuinely happy. I’ve been debating whether or not I should even continue with my blog. I’ve actually been receiving some pretty harsh comments lately. I know that it should be expected since my blog is public and everyone is entitled to their opinion – not everyone’s a fan. I’ve had bad comments before and it’s never really bothered me, but since my passion for blogging is dwindling the comments definitely aren’t helping.
Just when it seems that everything is going your way, life as you know it has it’s own unexpected way of changing the very world you’ve gotten used to. Just like I always say, “life is random”. There’s ups, downs, uncertainty, and catch 22’s. In my life, it seems to all come at me at once. I’ve always thought that god (or some higher power) puts us all on this very steep hill called Life. He tells us that we are to get to the very top of the hill. What he neglects to tell us is that along the way he’ll be hurling giant boulders at us. Some of us seem to get bigger ones than others.
I don’t want to get into too much detail as there are some things that I have trouble expressing openly. Yes, this is my “digital diary”, but it’s very rare that I even open up to any of my close friends. I usually keep everything boggle up and to myself.
I am very sincere when I use the words “love” and “trust”. I only trust my deep inner emotions with people I truly love. Unfortunately, sometimes the people we love do something to lose our trust. Don’t worry, I’m not referring to Pooh. But I have lost a friend that I genuinely loved and will never trust again.
Me’shell Ndegéocello – Fool of Me
Pooh and I went to Ray at Night a couple weeks ago. Ray at Night is an art event held on the second Saturday of every month. It’s a bunch of art galleries and exhibits. Ray at Night is pretty exciting because there are several galleries scattered in Northpark. Most of the galleries are located on Ray St. Pooh and I went to a really interesting gallery where the artist did art using wire. I really liked his music selection – Portis Head was playing when we arrived. Portis Head rocks!
I had forgot to mention in my last post that my walls in the video were blue. I was trying to say that my walls were not green in the video and my walls are currently green. Anyway…whatever. I’m over it. :P
So apparently, there happens to be an impostor online somewhere pretending to be me and/or my bf Pooh. This “fake tigguhh” is messaging people on yahoo/msn and having cam2cam sessions with them. He would play an old video of Pooh and I while recording video feed of the poor guy he’s caming with. I honestly don’t care if someone has pictures and vids of us, and I don’t really care if there’s someone pretending to be me. What bothers me is that I received a couple disturbing messages from a really pissed off kid that was threatening to call the police on me and Pooh. Apparently the impostor had recorded the him and posted his video on xtube. He was threatening me saying, “I’m only 17! I’m going to call the cops on you! I can have you arrested!” Blinded by his anger and frustration, he wouldn’t listen when I tried to explain that it wasn’t us. I also tried to explain to him that he should remember what color the walls in the video were, and to see my recent pictures of my room (my walls have never been green until now…they were blue in our old place and in the video they’re blue…and we have a different bed). I had also mentioned that I had longer hair in the video feed he was watching. I pointed out that in all of my online profiles, I have been semi-bald for quite some time now…there’s no way I could of been bald and grew out hair that fast. Another thing that I pointed out to him, which basically ended it, was that I mentioned that if he looks at how Pooh looks right now…and see how much weight he’s lost since when the video was taken…he’ll see there’s no way it was a live feed he was watching. Pooh has lost a lot of weight since we first have been together.
Anyway, there’s nothing I nor he could do about this. I can’t make him stop and I can’t warn anyone. The thing about the net is once you put your shit out there, it’s out there for everyone and anyone to do whatever they want with it. That’s another thing about my blog…since my xxx pics are already out there in circulation, I guess I might as well be the one circulating them :) Perhaps it’d be nice if I were getting paid for it. Oh well. ::shrugs::
If anyone does randomly message you pretending to be me and/or Pooh. As much as you might really want it to be us, unfortunately, it probably isn’t.
Speaking of Tigguhh…
I thought I’d post some images that I’ve recently uploaded to my flickr but not had time to blog about. They’re of two different nights Pooh and I went to Universal with some friends. Nothing really interesting…just random.
Pooh and I went to The Hole for the first time this past Sunday. It was pretty fun! They serve all of their drinks in these large pitchers. I’ve never had a pitcher full of Greygoose & Tonic before…it’s frikkin awesome!
They also have fresh burgers out front. I had a Gordo Burger. It had a large beef patty with lettuce, tomatoes, onions, avocado, and bacon. IT WAS INCREDIBLE! It might have been just because I was extremely hammered at the time…but I am very sure it would of been just as good had I been sober.
As you all should know by know. I love food. I also love the amazing and talented chefs that create it. One of my favorites…Rocco! Super sexy…
BTW, I finally fixed my computer problems. YAY!
Pooh and I were driving down 5th avenue one day and we saw a store that caught our eye. The window front had a bunch of round colorful stickers with MKV on them. There were rainbow flags all over the roof of the building so we figured it was some kind of gay establishment. What really caught our attention was the really awesome graffiti and artwork on the walls. We didn’t know what kind of business the place was but it really peaked our curiosity. Unfortunately, we didn’t stop by since we were meeting friends.
Pooh and I randomly decided to check the place out this past weekend. To our surprise it was a porn store. It was quite a pleasant surprise. We were greeted by a very friendly guy (I think he was the owner) that informed us about different sections of the store and what they carried. The layout of the store was pretty nice. The interior was hip and welcoming. There are currently 2 floors. The third floor will soon be available for “classes” and “workshops”.
Pooh and I didn’t buy anything but we joined their mailing list. The guy working there made it a very enjoyable experience. He was very funny and definitely added charm to the place. I think we’ll be buying our “essentials” at MKV. :)
I tried to see if there were images of the store but all I could find was their website. Mankind Video The website doesn’t look anything like the inside of the store. If you’re ever in the area and find yourself in a “curious” mood, stop by Mankind Video. Let me know what you think!