I haven’t really been in the mood to blog much lately. I’ve been feeling down in the dumps. I haven’t really had much content to blog and I haven’t really been taking many pictures. I think I usually whip out my camera when I get excited and happy about something…but lately I just haven’t been genuinely happy. I’ve been debating whether or not I should even continue with my blog. I’ve actually been receiving some pretty harsh comments lately. I know that it should be expected since my blog is public and everyone is entitled to their opinion – not everyone’s a fan. I’ve had bad comments before and it’s never really bothered me, but since my passion for blogging is dwindling the comments definitely aren’t helping.
Just when it seems that everything is going your way, life as you know it has it’s own unexpected way of changing the very world you’ve gotten used to. Just like I always say, “life is random”. There’s ups, downs, uncertainty, and catch 22’s. In my life, it seems to all come at me at once. I’ve always thought that god (or some higher power) puts us all on this very steep hill called Life. He tells us that we are to get to the very top of the hill. What he neglects to tell us is that along the way he’ll be hurling giant boulders at us. Some of us seem to get bigger ones than others.
I don’t want to get into too much detail as there are some things that I have trouble expressing openly. Yes, this is my “digital diary”, but it’s very rare that I even open up to any of my close friends. I usually keep everything boggle up and to myself.
I am very sincere when I use the words “love” and “trust”. I only trust my deep inner emotions with people I truly love. Unfortunately, sometimes the people we love do something to lose our trust. Don’t worry, I’m not referring to Pooh. But I have lost a friend that I genuinely loved and will never trust again.
Me’shell Ndegéocello – Fool of Me