under the weather…way under

I’ve been feeling a little under the weather lately. Well…it seems more like “directly under a rainstorm” under. I think it’s stress related. It may even be that I’m going through some kind of mild depression or something. I was bored and googled my symptoms. Most of the links pointed to depression.

Minor depression is defined as a mood disturbance of at least 2 weeks’ duration, with between two and five symptoms of depression, including depressed mood, diminished interest, weight change, sleep disturbance, psychomotor changes, fatigue, feelings of worthlessness, poor concentration, and recurrent thoughts of death. Patients with this condition may have fewer vegetative symptoms (appetite, diurnal mood variation) and more subjective symptoms (self-blame, worry, irritability, lethargy).

I tell Pooh that I might be going through depression or some kind of pre-midlife-crisis but he thinks I’m just being facetious; and I am…kinda. I think we all use humor to hide our insecurities. I’m a very optimistic, happy, positive person. I don’t actually express my negative feelings and inner emotions very well. I usually keep those feelings to myself. I actually don’t really have anyone to speak to about my problems besides Pooh.

I don’t want to worry any of my readers or anything. It’s not like I’ve been properly diagnosed. I think it might just be that work has been really stressful. I’ve also been having some personal/relationship issues that I’ve been dealing with. I try to stay positive and tell myself that there is a gleam of light at the end of the tunnel, but my self responds back and says that it’s slowly fading.